Last night I jerked myself awake, nightmares plaguing me I woke up crying. I didn’t sleep well needless to say, my sleep meds didnt work.
Today I couldn’t nap. I tried and my eyes wouldn’t stay shut. “You’ll probably be so tired you’ll just crash tonight!” My friend laughs…
But they are wrong. Here it is 2am and I can’t sleep again. My eyes are bloodshot red but I can’t help but let my mind wander.
I took my sleep meds, like I’m supossed to, yet here I am, wide awake. Under the influence of something like sedatives. Addictive, or so they say.
Nothing works. Nothing stays.
I’m afraid I’ll be awake forever.
So I got up and layed on the concrete outside.
It’s a warm summer night, muggy atmosphere.
I watch the stars, and hope they don’t mind.
I try to forget everything going on inside my head.
Headlights flash, I dont move, not because I can’t but because I’m too tired too.
Why am I awake? Why am I awake at all?